By Didi Benami, Hollywood.com Staff
Having gone through Hollywood Week myself, I can say that it was the most intense experience ever, even more so than American Idol itself. Everybody loses their voice, you're singing all the time, it's where you prove yourself. It's insane, and it's just the beginning.
This year, they separated the guys and the girls for separate weeks in Hollywood. But the real twist is that the producers assigned people to groups rather than having them pick their own. I have no idea why they did that I wonder how they ended up grouping everyone together. It seemed like it was pretty fair, and it actually was more of an advantage to the singers. It's really difficult when you're trying to choose somebody so fast and you don't know anybody there. You just form a group and sometimes there are no similarities whatsoever.
I was really impressed with a lot of kids. Micah, Elijah, Curtis Finch Jr. he reminded me of Joshua Ledet. Wow, that guy's got some serious soul. Lazaro, though he makes me cry every time I see him perform. He's so grateful and so sweet, and he just doesn't even know how good he is. He does something to your soul. He's grateful and he's thankful. He's like the embodiment of hope and inspiration and it's really sweet to see somebody being so fearless and going forward. It's a really beautiful thing.
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The way Lazaro's fellow group members acted when they didn't get through was terrible. It broke my heart. I couldn't believe there were really people like that in the world. I didn't want to see it. Watching Kayden go home really broke my heart, too. He was really sweet. He stood out to me, and I was really sad to see him go. I thought that whole group was really sweet.
It's really amazing to see these really triumphant kids regardless of what they're going through. It's probably so hard to have something that heavy to deal with in your everyday life. There are some really great stories and some really inspirational stories like Lazaro but I want to hear everybody sing.
I think that real voices come from a place of pain, and that doesn't necessarily mean you have to share your story on television. I think music comes from somewhere that's really, really deep and extraterrestrial. It's something that just pours out of your body and it's something that moves you and gives you chill bumps and makes your heart beat fast. It's something that makes you feel. That's what I really appreciate, anyway. A lot of good singers just have that because of whatever they've been through.
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Although I was sad to see Kayden go home, I understood what he went through. I auditioned two times before I actually made it through, so I had to develop and get better. I didn't make it past the first round, and then I made it all the way through to the top 10. You try and try and try again, and if you don't get through, it's probably because you're not ready and it's not because you're bad. I still feel like I maybe wasn't ready yet! It's crazy how much you develop even after that show.
It's a tough time, but I also have some great memories from Hollywood Week. I met Crystal Bowersox and Lee DeWyze sitting outside on the very first day. I remember when Siobhan Magnus fell down and skinned her knees and she had spider orange tights on. There was so much going on, and it was really, really fun.
During our season we all got along really well. I think for anybody who does any season it's just a crazy experience. Having the same goal and dream as everybody, we're like gladiators fighting against each other. Keith Urban was right it's like the Hunger Games. But you make so many great friends and you don't want to see them go!
Didi Benami finished 10th on Season 9 of 'American Idol.' She's currently working on her first album, which should be released independently by the summer of 2013. Follow her on Twitter @didibenami
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